RELIANCE
Sallea Unger

The main aspiration of a Buddhist is enlightenment, to see reality without illusion as Sakyamuni Buddha did. And we are told that for this accomplishment of prime importance in our lives we must not rely on ourselves at all? This requires a 360-degree turn, easier said than done.

The mind has many levels of deviousness. If I look, I find that when I do something to 'help' another, somewhere in there is a tiny intention that this 'good' deed is bringing me a step closer to Nirvana. It is almost irresistible for me to try to give the unlimited force field that we call Amida Buddha a little assistance. Most of the time I don't attempt to look. Denial is the great soother. Usually I don't realise there has been denial until the current top layer has peeled off, and I see it for what it was.

Sometimes there is nothing left but to say Nembutsu.

This article first appeared, with the Author's permission, in PLN 7, September 1996. Republished here in agreement with the compiler/editor of the inaugurate hard copy Journal. The Author, any person or any organisation credited, quoted or connected with this article are cordially invited to contact me with any comments, amendments, fresh contributions or complaints. email me